Wednesday, August 16, 2017

Before the end of the month

I am going to be having a meeting with some people. It may well not be a good meeting- I can only hope it is. It may so pear shaped and quickly. I simply and literally have no idea and it's driving me crazy. I wish I had more I could say on this right now but I simply cannot. I sorry :(

Monday, August 14, 2017

But, while not dead,

I still tend to fall asleep in the evening. Sigh. A combo of poor sleep (I sleep very little, pain wakes me after only a few hours) and the heat.

So much yay :)

Take care :)

Saturday, August 12, 2017

I am not dead, I have not given up on this blog!

Honestly, I have not. But in the morning time, it is difficult to type for a few reasons. Early morning it takes me a few hours to be awake enough to type legibly and intelligently. Unlike my mouth which can just turn on and GO with little to no input from my brain, my fingers require a LOT of paying attention to when I type, especially since I am a two-finger typer... I type with the index finger of my left hand, my middle finger on my right, and I hit the space bar with... with either thumb, depending on how I feel at the time. I CAN type 104 WPM with 0 errors when I try- I don't try all that often :)

But this summer has been HOT and HUMID and I cannot handle heat well at ALL as I have gotten older. Heat just  KNOCKS ME OUT- I either literally fall completely asleep where ever I am, OR I enter a dazed/confused state... I am not asleep, but I am not awake either. I am... not functioning, but still DOING things that I cannot remember, explain, or wish to have happened. I have come out of my daze to find I have turned off my computer; I have switched off every functional program and RESET my desktop with the taskbar on the side, small flickering icons, etc.

I HATE the heat. I like being functional and efficient and the heat robs me of that.

I am so sorry :(

Tuesday, August 8, 2017

I know I complain about the heat a lot

but I do NOT do heat well. I have been DYING from sweating so much - ARGH. So hard to make videos when the heat makes me PASS OUT. Oh yay!

SO I am sorry- doing my best!

Sunday, August 6, 2017

Thank you everyone, you diehards you, who leave me comments!

I am sorry I don't answer comments more often and I am sorry that when I do they are usually so short. I thank you all so very much for any comments I receive and it is awesome- thank you all so very much!!

Saturday, August 5, 2017

How sustainable actually is it that I am doing 5 daily videos?

I literally have no time to do... anything really, all day, but prepare to make videos, make videos, and edit those videos I have made. And I don't mind that at ALL- it keeps me busy and NOT being busy is my bane. When I have nothing to do, I sit and brood over the death of my wife and I don;t want to do that and I know Jennifer wouldn;t want me to do that. So I do my best to stay busy! And right now, making videos is the best way for me to stay busy.

Hopefully,  my game channel and game videos can actually take off. If it doesn't and stays just a low-level channel with only a few hundred subs- again, this is ALL therapy, so it's all good!

Have a great day ebbryoon!

Friday, August 4, 2017

Yesterday I paid my lawyer the $500 he needed to finally get this bankruptcy DONE.

I had to take an online course to show I was a good person. So I did. Took a test to show that indeed I am a good person and paid attention. The certificate cost $25 and it was faxed to my attorney. He'll do $25 worth of work and take my $500 as more money he soaked from me.

But at least it's DONE.