Monday, July 24, 2017

Last night was a VERY good VPAP night!

The past 5 days, trying to wear my VPAP mask when sleeping was ramping up my anxiety to horrible levels. Last night tho when I put on my mask there was ZERO anxiety. In fact, I felt GREAT while wearing it! Slept wonderfully!

Hopefully, this can keep up... now I just have to figure out how to NOT kill the skin on the bridge of my nose! It's breaking down, and I do NOT need a pressure sore on my FACE!

Saturday, July 22, 2017

I not understand what is happening with my system and my sound

It's getting crazy. I used to have my volume set at 30 out of 100 and it was nice and loud; NOW, I have to put the volume at 40 at it's so QUIET-

When I edit my videos through my editor, I edit the sound so it's PERFECT on my side. But MY SIDE is not reporting things ACCURATELY- when my video sounds PERFECT on my side, I render and upload-

and it sounds all WRONG- my voice is too loud, the game volume is too quiet- I do NOT understand what is happening, I just don't want to have to reinstall again. It's only been like 2 months since I had to re-install Win10- this is nuts!

Thursday, July 20, 2017

The last time I looked

It was the 18th of July... and today is the 20th!! ARGH!

The heat has been killing me. I do not do heat well- it gets over 75F, and I lose the ability to think clearly, to stay awake, to be able to move and get things DONE...

The last few days I have spent, at times, literally 4 to 5 HOURS in a daze, trying to be coherent and FEELING myself be unable to think... trying to stand up, to get up and MOVE and find myself literally UNABLE to- robbed of thought and action by the HEAT.

And it's only mid-JULY. ARGH. It ain't gonna start cooling down til mid-September. Sigh :(

Tuesday, July 18, 2017

I am so sorry

I don't just want to post one line gibberish statements to ensure I "post daily"; yet, if I do NOT post at least SEMI-regularly, I WILL stop posting after only a short time... so I have to find a nice medium!

Not there yet, but working on it!

Thursday, July 13, 2017

I Worry So Much About Gaining Weight Back And Getting Fat Again

and so far I really don't need to worry about GAINING weight... in fact, I STILL have to work to keep my weight UP. I keep dropping down to under 200, and 213 is a good weight for me, tho I get really antsy and worried if my weight even hits 205...

Still tho, I worry- which I shouldn't. Born worrier :)

Tuesday, July 11, 2017

I think I need to make sure I also stress

quantity as well as quality- if I don't post every day, I'm gonna forget about this entirely- and THAT would suck!