Tuesday, June 27, 2017

Today was an interesting day for many reasons.

About 10 AM, people were walking on our roof, using leaf blowers to clean out the gutters. I didn't mind so much but my housemates were waked up pretty hard... SHE works until 2 AM, doesn't get home until 2:30ish, then has to wind down before she sleeps. That didn't help to have people stomping around on the roof!

The heat, combined with worry over financial matters, has really dragged me down and it has shown in the videos of late and I am so sorry.

Monday, June 26, 2017

I didn't sleep all that well last night-

maybe 1 1/2 hours, waking from pain and then trying to rest for another 1 1/2... but I am feeling pretty happy today :) Done 4 videos for the channel and fighting the urge to go make a FIFTH video! I don't work; I don't have a job; I broke my body and mind working as a nurses aide and my wife dying not 10 years after that sort of finished the job. I paid my taxes until 2006 and I still pay them now- just because I am on disability doesn't mean I don't pay taxes on everything. But I have been on disability since.

Nursing is worse for your body than crab fishing or coal mining. And I don't say that as a goof- I say that as someone who has read a bit and heard some about how a gov't agency (the CBO?) did an independent study on back injuries and found out that worse than almost everything was- nursing. I am also making fun of myself in this comment, as "I sorta remember" and "Maybe I heard" are NOT verifiable sources... but I AM happy enough with my memory that IF you google search on it, I DO believe I will be vindicated :)

But hey :)

Sunday, June 25, 2017

The past 2 nights have been kind of rough

because my housemates have gone to a concert on Friday afternoon and have been gone since! Now I've been alone for 2 nights and I discovered I STILL get mass anxiety when I am alone. Sigh.

Because of my social anxieties, I don't like being around people and I seek times and places where I am alone. But when I am alone, I quickly start hearing my own thoughts bouncing off the walls... going stir-crazy in a VERY short period of time, and NEEDING social contact... I can't be happy in ANYWAY situation I find myself in :)

Saturday, June 24, 2017

This is not going to be a good summer

because it is MEGA hot already. I am upstairs in this duplex and the heat makes the 2nd floor HOT- and on a HOT day, it's DOUBLE hot. Manoman :( The heat has been putting me to sleep! Gonna do my best tho to power on!

Friday, June 23, 2017

Well, shuckle my duckle.

And apparently, my duckle NEEDS a good shuckling because I didn't post a thing yesterday. On the other hand, neither did I think on any of my various fiction projects. I have a lot in my head I need to write down before I forget FOREVER. I have SEVERAL novels and a TON of short stories I need to get OUT o f my head on into the "digital world" since there ain't no more typewriters and paper no mo.

I'd say I promise to do better but I've already DONE that and look how well that worked, aye?

Well, I promise to do better anyway :)

Wednesday, June 21, 2017

Hopefully my computer is not going to die anytime soon though it probably will.

I turned off my computer, unplugged everything, opened it up and took out the graphics card and got the air blower ready. I then BLEW all the dust out of my computer with the air compressor (my Kirby vacuum cleaner- with the proper attachment it comes a damned good but DAMNED LOUD air compressor :) ).

Then I put the graphics card back in, closed the case back up, plugged it back in and turned it on.

And was HORRIFIED when it told me I needed to enter SETUP to recover my BIOS. I tried, but the video only showed 1/4 of the screen with no movement- had to turn it all off.

Spent the next HOUR fighting with my computer. It would start to load, then blue screen. Would start to load, then give me a device missing error. Finally, it told me to enter SETUP again and I did so- looked at the settings, left. It blue screened. Then it loaded further, device missing errored. Loaded FURTHER, blue screen and NOW it's loaded and it seems to be stable...

I do not know why it had such problems and I can only hope it will continue to start when I turn things on in the morning :| If I go suddenly dark, now you know WHY.

Tuesday, June 20, 2017

Yesterday was not the best day I have ever had

and I am very sorry that I didn't have an entry. Soon I will have another story tho, so THAT is a good thing!