Tuesday, May 23, 2017

Well, while I didn't fall asleep last night...

It still wasn't a very good night. My apologies. I will start streaming to the world soon, I promise! I have to- it's IMPORTANT. :)

Back later :)

Monday, May 22, 2017

I must have more tired yesterday than I thought!

I check today's date and it turns out I missed a whole day blogging again. It might be that daily is a bit much for me... or I need to buck down and get to it :)

One or the other.

Saturday, May 20, 2017

Not quite sure how I am going to do this

Because of various reasons, I have tried sleeping in my recliner this evening because I don't have any RSO to sleep in my bed. So when I do try, I might be able to sleep for an hour or so. Going to be fun, being awake and wandering the house when my housemates are trying to sleep.

Friday, May 19, 2017

I am not going to give up on this blog!

I apologize to the 2 or 3 people that read this blog, other than myself :), for not being as daily as I had planned on being. I WILL do better. How can I bolster my new media empire if I don't actually POST! :)

Take care and I will do better!

Wednesday, May 17, 2017

It has not been a good month for me.

In fact, not for ANYONE in my household. We got hit by a bunch of stealth charges that went and whammed us below what we needed to have... now it's a challenge to get enough CANNABIS for the three of us.

My need for cannabis is, arguably, greater than that of my housemates. Without cannabis, I will become bedridden. I'm getting close to that NOW since we are so low on cash- we cannot buy the cannabis we all need. My hands are so sore I can barely use them; my left hip feels like there is broken glass grinding in it with every movement; every joint, every nerve receptor, is YELLING right now because my fibromyalgia is not being treated appropriately.

My housemates are in better shape but they still require cannabis themselves- SHE has enough physical and mental issues from her childhood that without cannabis she does not do well; HE needs cannabis or HE hurts and his mood bottoms out.

We are all in bad shape right now and hurting. Life is fun :)

Take care and hope to keep posting!

Monday, May 15, 2017

Yesterday was a weird day

After I went to lunch with my sister whom I have not seen for ten years, I just felt weird and tired. Didn't get much done at ALL. Reminders of mortality, I think, since my sister is 50 and... looking her age, and her daughter was there and ALL her children are in their mid to late 20's, and mY kids are getting older...

Mortality. How nice to remember that one day I will DIE.


Saturday, May 13, 2017

Well, Starting TOMORROW

is what I meant, obviously. Now I don't want to make this just a throwaway post because then I am doing myself and you no favors at all. And yet at the moment, I am unable to really sit and type a moire substantive post; for this, I most sincerely apologize.  I wish I had it in me to deliver a post of actual import but for many reasons, one of them sheer tiredness, I am unable to maintain a clear thread in my head.

So I hope tomorrow I will be able to type sentences and phrases that actually mean something. Take care my friends and best of luck.

Friday, May 12, 2017

Now that I have gotten into the habit of daily posting...

Even though the post may not be worth much! But NOW the challenge is to make posts of substance and size! So, starting on the morrow, I will be not only posting daily on my blog but making substantive posts- of over 2,000 words. This is insanity and unsustainable. So let's begin! :)

Wednesday, May 10, 2017

Getting closer to livestreaming on Twitch!

Especially since HITBOX.TV is now SMASHCAST and I can no longer sign into it. But that works! My new streaming URL is


So very cool!

Tuesday, May 9, 2017

I spent all day with an online friend

trying to get my comp to be able to stream. Oh, we spent HOURS. We did a lot and figured a bunch out, but at the same time, we aren't done yet!

Got a huge headache and fell asleep for 2 hours at the end of it as well!

Monday, May 8, 2017

Sorry I Missed Yesterday

I've been in such a mental mess of late and what with my bankruptcy court meeting today, I just didn't get it done and I am so sorry.

Saturday, May 6, 2017

Well, At Least I Have SOMETHING Done :)

Oh man, re-installing all the software I use on a daily basis is such a pain. MAN I hate all this  anymore! Takes so much time. Oh well!

Hopefully later today I will have more to say. We shall see! :) Take care everyone!

Friday, May 5, 2017

Oh man

Last night, Microsoft was supposed to update my computer with the new Creators Update!

When I came into my "studio", I discovered my comp was black screened, with the words BOOTMGR MISSING press ctr alt del to continue

And that was that. My comp was dead.

I've since managed to re-format and reinstall Win7, tho I am updating now. I need to upgrade to Win10, sadly, as a lot of my software for the channel now requires Win10. Sigh.

No videos for this day likely- it's almost 11 AM and I';m still updating Win7.


Not to mention Windows still doesn't see my 1 terabyte hybrid drive, a mix between an ssd drive and a standard drive.


Thursday, May 4, 2017

I Am So Sorry AGAIN

After the power came back yesterday I didn't have a lot of oomph in me to do a bunch of stuff and I kept putting off entering into the blog because I could always do it later...

Then I started falling asleep in my chair...

...then it was time to go to bed, and now it's the next DAY...

I am so sorry :(

I promise myself to do better THIS time :)

Tuesday, May 2, 2017

I AM So Ashamed Of My Behavior Yesterday

Not that I did anything terrible. I'm just shocked and horrified that I couldn't control my actions. Normally my control is tight enough that I can feel terrible inside but hide it- and yesterday, I could not control my depression and mood...

I am so sorry :(

Monday, May 1, 2017

I Have No Idea What Is Going On In My Body

I started off feeling great. Then started getting depressed. Then got BADLY depressed. Took a shower, started feeling better. Now I am unaccountably PISSED OFF at the world and I don't know WHY. Today is a weird day and I am very sorry, world :(