Sunday, June 18, 2017

I am more poor now than I have ever been

and that's life; mostly I wanted to talk about how, while I am MEGA poor right now (I make 14k per year on disability; my rent is 95% of my "income") I have not always been so.

Before the injury that took me out of the workforce, I had always worked. I was in the USAF for 4 years; I looked for work while living on savings; I worked as a nurses aide for 15 years. When I was single, I made a single man's money and that was good. I was able to survive and survive well.

Later, I married and together my wife and me were comfortable. We were solidly LOWER middle class- with the $30k/year I made, the $60k/year SHE made, we were comfortable. Not  Comfortable or COMFORTABLE, but comfortable; we lived in her parents home- they lived downstairs, we lived upstairs.

First I injured my back so severely I have not been able to lift 15 lbs without pain. Cannabis makes the pain easier to handle; it doesn't make it go away. She was able to work for another almost 2 years. Then her health went south quite quickly and she too went onto disability; suddenly, we went from $90k/year to $26k/year. We were able to make it work, though it hurt.

Since my wife has died, my income has dwindled to my disability AND the VERY kind people who have donated through my campaign; and who have become my patrons. I "make" 14k per year; it takes more than 14k per year to live. I am barely ahead of the wolves at all times.

Thank you so much to everyone who has ever given me any money at all to survive. I am extremely grateful; I am ALIVE right now, and without your help,  I wouldn't be.

Thank you all so much.


  1. I'm very sad right now...

    It hurts me that I can't help you financially. But it's good that there are people who have good hearts and help you. I would also like to help too. Really.
    But the only thing I can do FOR THIS MOMENT is to wish you all the best, lots of health, a daily smile on your lips, peace and perseverance, and everything you want my friend.

    Remember, you are NOT ALONE. You have your viewers. You have your devoted fan from Poland :3

    Be yourself and never change.

    1. Never worry. I am poorer now than I have ever been BUT it's not new- I've gotten used to it :) Thank you so much for commenting and I hope you have a GREAT day!